Sayang(kah)..

Rasanya dah lama berangan nak mintak no tepon budak tu.
Siap plan rancangan jahat nak kitnep phone kawan yg memang bersahabat dengan budak tu.
Tapi selalunya akan berdepan dengan jalan buntu.
Ye lah, cemerlang la pulak nak mntak no tepon orang yg tak pernah tegur pun kan.
Haruslah menimbulkan spekulasi lepas tu.

Tapi dua tiga hari lalu, emm, senang cakap rezeki no tepon budak tu ada depan mata.
Tiga hari la jugak berjaya lawan temptation nak copy
Masalahnya, sekali imbas je dah ingat.

No tepon cik Mira pun aku amek masa berminggu-minggu nak hafal
No tepon kakak aku pun sampai sekarang, fail terus nak hafal.
Budak tu punya, sekali imbas.
Tapi save dekat notepad lappy.
Takut nanti ngada-ngada hantar mesej kosong.
Berbintang-bintang la dapat markah penumbuk dari tangan kapas cik Mira..
*title notepad: kenja.nak.mati.ngada-ngada.nanti.tak.berani.jugak.nape.nak.ambil.nombor.dia.pulak. noktah banyak2 tu xde sbnrny, cuma taknak kena saman lepas julingkan mata orang.*

Tapi lepas tu, cik Eqa dengan yogurt mixed berries di tangan tanya pulak, "Dila sayang dia tak?"
Erk?
Cik Eqa, kenapa tanya sedemikian rupa?
Pertanyaan cik Eqa tu membuatkan aku tertanya.

 Ha'ah kan? aku sayang dia kah?

(pandang cik Eqa dengan blur)

Speechless. Seriously. Baru sedar yang tak rasa apa pun sebenarnya.

Cuma kagum dengan budak tu.

Sebab aura 'kebaikan' budak tu sangat kuat.

*lagi kuat dari aura world Mawi*

Mungkin sebab segan dengan budak tu.

Sebab dia sangat disenangi. aku ni pulak senang-senang je orang campak tepi.

Kesimpulannya, kagum, bukan sayang.

Tapi tu yang rasa nak marah bila nampak ada makhluk lain nak mengenja dengan budak tu tu, kenapa?

Oh kepala rasa seperti digelek steam roller.

Kesimpulannya, tersimpul mati dah dawai-dawai dalam otak.

Demit. 

Blacklist. ?

Didn't even realize i had a blacklist.
Haih.
Maybe someday it'll be deleted. Who knows.

Tiada yang Diadakan

The stories only lived in my memory, no one else's. So why do you have to open your big mouth and tell the stories to everyone? Especially the one who did not even remember. I'm the one who'd be humiliated. Dont you ever THINK BEFORE YOU ACT?

Kakak

Okay. I'm a big sister for two little brothers. (Physically, it is the other way around). I've spent my whole life with them, along with my kakak of course. They'll always be my big little brothers. And that is the problem. I'll never see them as two grown up guys. They are teenagers for goodness sake, still I cannot absorb the fact that they have their own personal life.  

My younger brother have someone special since he started studying in UMS (I think). I'm not sure  though. He didn't talk much about his personal life with me, except for his study. But whenever we are both home, he would received text messages from a particular girl. I even stalk this girl at fb. Hahaha sorry dear. Can't help it. But I kinda don't mind about this. I mean, my brother being with this girl if that is the case. She looks nice, decent, and she is educated too. 

It is my youngest brother that i am worried about. He had had a girlfriend ever since high school, but the problem is he is in love with some kind of cheap girl who likes to promote herself here and there, a playgirl. I so will not approve my brother to be with that type of girl. Maybe I am being paranoid, but I'm not alone in despising that girl. My cousin also did not approve of her, and believe me, this cousin of mine knows what type of girl my brother's girlfriend is. She's a coward to I think, because if she is being serious to be with my brother, she would try to approach me and my sister at the very least. Tak ke? I feel like knocking my brother's head real hard to help him see the fact that this girl is useless. I mean come on! She dumped him a gizzilionth times already!

Anyway, I am starting to wonder if I am being a bad sister, since my brothers did not want to talk to me about it. Or is it normal for brothers not to talk to their sisters about their love lives? I mean, it's not like I'd share anything with them about my love life. Especially now that i dont have one.Pathetic.

Haih. Sakit kepala.