i need a smile to brighten my day
not curses to keep me astray.
i really dont need any sign that she's alive
she wasn't there when i needed her the most

things

hmm,lotsa thing had happened, n i dont have time(n money) to wrote it down in my personal (right) blog.
1. having conflicts with certain people
2. having my mid term
3. camping
4. presentations
5. blood donation
6. most importantly, fainted and fall face first.

i want to talk bout the camping. honestly, i feel a little bit left out at the beginnig cuz i'm the only junior there.but luckily my seniors are friendly...esp kak tiqah...bnyk ckp.hahaha.n i got to snap(bluetooth actually) a picture of someone sleeping.ahahah.comelny... ^.^

another thing is the blood donation. at last, i succeeded in donating my blood.
wah! amalan mulia. yeay dhilah! siap snap pictures.unfortunately x ley nk upload cuz ade censured sket...showing a lil bit of skin.mweheheh.

yg xbest plak, after i donated my blood, i blacked out. i dont really know for how long, but when i woke up several things that going on in my mind were
1. where am i?
2. why are these people surrounding me?
3. did i fall asleep here?
4. what are they doing with my lips?
5. what happen to my lips?
6. why are my lips hurting?

n then i blacked out again.
when i woke up, again, i was already being lift up to sit on one of the chairs provided for the donaters. i couldnt lift my eyes. even if i could, i couldnt open it for long.
people are asking me questions, and though i feel like cursing, i dont have the energy to do so. plus their just being nice. but consider this. when you cant even open your eyes, everyone is expecting you to answer their questions. fine la, klw tny skali xpe. ni tny soalan sama 3 kali. ak da jwb skali, ak da mls jwb utk kali2 yg seterusnya.lantakla..hihi..sorry...
nurse tu pun garang nak mati. xpatut sungguh dye bg tampar2 kasih sayang dye kat ak.huhuhu

n according to my friends' story, my eyes were all white, like org yg kne sawan.masyaAllah,,,ngerinya rupa ak..huhuh

tp yg pling pnting adalah untk mengucapkan ribuan dan jutaan terima kasih buat kwn2 yg stick with me through the whole time.

to amira yg meminjamkan pahanya for me to lie( n sleep) for nearly one hour n tlg belikan betik(though sempat date ngan somone.grr...but beggars
cant be picky.hihi.)

to sheeqa yg membersihakan luka di bibir dengan penuh "kasih sayang"nya.heee

to cha'a yg sanggup kipas+lap peluh dila, dan terpaksa menahan perasaan melihat kakaknya yg comel ni throw up...huhuhu

to zara yg tolong kipaskan, n SUMBAT straw ke dalam mulut supaya dila dpt minum.
untuk abe yg drive tolong antar blik g ruqayyah.pehww..lega xyah naik bas.
generally, kpd sheeqa, zara n cha'a sbb urut2 kaki, (best lah...)dan jgk utk plastik ais di hujung kaki.hihihi

sayang korg sume.... :)

(hmmm...pas ni myb xnk donate blood dah...)

been so overly sensitive

I would like to apologize to miss AMIRA SYAKIRA for being so overly sensitive this week,
i know u've got your own problems too
but i'm much too exhausted and you know why
and i have got a lot of things in my mind.
Sorry.

Booth and Mini Exhibition for Fund Raising Campaign in Conjunction with Outreach to Mabul Island.

only one thing i got to say

dia sgt baik.....

I still remember

The smell of her hair
The way she stares
The look in her eyes
The way she smiles
The blush of her cheeks
The way she speaks
The way she hugs
The way she laughs
The way she cares
The way she stares

I miss her.

Riverbank rant

(Fingers dialing)
Aku: Hello ma, call balik.
Mama: Ok…

(Cuz I don’t wanna be alone, oh oh)
Aku: Hello mak, (started crying)
Mama: Eh, kenapa???
Aku: Kejap, kejap.
(more or less 30 seconds.)
Aku: (still crying)Mak, kmi bru dpt taw hri isnin msti byr yuran, klw nda nda bole pre reg untuk exam. Buduh ba *** ni, mna la ak mo cri duit smpai seribu tu??
Mama: Rileks, rileks, jangan la ko nangis, nanti mama suruh bapamu bank in duit.bapa mu di bank tu, bank in duit td. Jangan nangis, nnt mama call bapamu.
Aku: Buduh ba *** ni. Dia ckp dpt ptptn nnt dia potong untuk yuran. Tunggu la ba smpai org dpt ptptn. Ni nda, da menyempat-nyempat jugak mo mnta duit. Tunggu la ba ptptn tu. Buduh.
Mama: Rileks. Besa la ty gtu tu..jgn la ko nangis.
Aku: Tu satu, satu lg yang RM310 yg sudah d byr tu kn kmi sudah hantar resit nya, smpai skrg dia blum key in. Bayangkan la ba, dua bulan suda kmi hntr tu resit. Pastu nnt klw dia nda key in kira mcm kmi nda byr la tu, nnt bru sibuk2 mo ptong dri ptptn. Buduh. Jd kerja jak mo p situ bg resit tu balik.
Mama: Ndapala, ko bg jak.tp ko bg yg photostate.yg pntg ko simpan copynya. Ba sudah la tu, jgn nangis.rilek2 sja..
Aku: Ba iya la… (sobbing)
Mama: ba ok ya, Assalamualaikum.
Aku: wkmslm..

Nasib baik mak mampu.....

selamat malam bintang

cinta beralih arah
selamat malam bintang
selamat datang FF.
boleh....?
(^.^)

i said sorry

i crushed my own wall and said sorry
but she is really mad at me.

orang ingat

hari yang bermula seperti biasa
senyum seperti biasa
(bangun lewat juga seperti biasa)
jalan sepeti biasa
jumpa seseorang di cafe, hampir menjadi biasa
kelas seperti biasa
mengelak seperti biasa
makan seperti biasa

orang ingat aku tak ada rasa
dalam kepala?
duit aku mahu cari di mana??????
orang kewangan punya kerja, aku yang sengsara.