dia dan aku

dia: salam dik, ktne? akak kat ruqayyah
aku: laundry dkt cafe...
dia:akak kt arking kt blok d, tp jap je,tmn kawan ambik brg je

aku to cha'a : u, nak tak teman i g par...
(bunyi mesej)

dia: akak blik dl...
(hish,bru nk jmpe)
aku: lenkali xyah cakap.
dia: ok

few minutes later

dia: akak tak taw pe mslh u. when i msg u rply cm 2.. t jgn tny npe i x msg u dah...

(heart breaking, can't breath, pretending to be okay)

aku: masalahnya,akk xpernah ada masa utk sy. u don't even call me syg like u used to
i'm trying to understand what u want, i trying to give you space. stupid me to
think i was special to you. akk blh ckp sy x rasional,tp mmg sy xske ble
akak pggl org lain mnja2 mcm akak pggl sy.sy taw sy bukan sape2 utk akak,
tp tpu klw sy ckp akak pun bkn sape2 utk sy. sbb bg sy xde org lain blh gnti
tmpt akak. tp akak hilang mcm tu je.

(pressed send button sbb xtaw nak ckp ape lg)

she still managed to hurt me.

hmm..

dia buka permata yang aku cari
aku silap menilai kaca dngan permata
terlalu teruja barangkali

used to think

i used to think
i used to feel
that she is cool

turns out to be, she's ice cold.
pathetic.

fallen apart

its like she never existed
its like she was only an imagination i created
its like she never care
its like she was never there.

fade, and fade
keep fading away